I just want get this off my chest.
I lied to you.
Men fall to my feet daily.
It's a shame you fucked up because I would have rocked your world.

I was tipsy walking out of a bar in a gorgeous, suede newsboy cap.

"GET YOUR 5 CENTS PAPS HERE!!!!"

Yesterday I worked a full day. Came home and ate a delicious dinner. I baked a rootbeer bundt cake with icing. Freshened up and went out with my man for drinks and dancing. A whirlwind romance. Dream day.

My cerebral palsy sneaks through in some photographs. I find it comforting.

I want him to be my one, true constant. I want his voice to be the one to pull me from my slumber. Being afraid no longer keeps me away. I've always considered myself blessed and lucky. These words echo through my mind, electrify my body when I think of him.

After our conversation last night I wanted to submerge myself in water.

I'm struggling with my faith these days.

The weather is getting colder and all I can think of is fur. Here kitty kitty. Meoooooow.

Went to the Bronx zoo with my man this past weekend. Traffic was insane getting there and normally I would want to scream in frustration. His calm nature and hand caressing mine soothes me. I let go. Come back into myself.

We saw Puffins~~

SMDH

Tonight has ended in a complete failure. My hair and makeup are done right and my dress real tight. I was just putting on the final touches--jewelry and perfume and I sprayed perfume in my damn eye. Ooooo wee does that sting. Staying in tonight...

I'm 23 and it feels so damn good.
I look like my mom.

TEN ARE YOU’S
1. Are you single: No.
2. Are you happy: yeppers
3. Are you bored: Nah
4. Are you naked: No
5. Are you a blonde: mhmmm
6. Are you moody: When mother nature comes knocking
7. Are you a lover/hater: all you need is love!
TEN FACTS
1. Name: Katherine
2. Nicknames: laurie face. some people call me by my last name
3. Any birth marks: yes
4. Hair color: light blonde
5. Natural hair color: brown
6. Eye color: blue
7. Height: 6'0
8. Mood: calm
9. Favorite colour: pale yellow
10. One Place You Want to Visit: Iceland


TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Do you believe in love at first sight: Nah
2. Do you believe in soul mates: It's terribly romantic but no
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally: yes
5. Have you ever broke someone’s heart: Yes
6. Ever had your heart broken: Yes
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them: Are you there, 14 year old Kate?
8. Are you afraid of commitment: It's a natural progression. Not afraid enough to stop myself
9. Who was the last person you hugged: My brother, Andrew
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to? Mom


TEN THIS OR THAT
1. Love or lust: am I sinner cause I do the two?
3. Cats or dogs: I prefer the company of cats. Dogs are too hyper.
4. A few best friends or many regular friends: A few best friends
5. Television or internet: Internet!! Forever...
6. Chinese Or Indian: Chinese
7. Wild night out or romantic night in: wild night out
8. Money or Happiness: I'm already happy. Could use that dolla dolla bill yo
9. Night or day: Night
10. Msn or phone: Phone


TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out: naaah. I'm stealth
2. Been skinny dipping: Yes
3. Bungee jumped: hell to the no
4. Finished an entire jaw breaker: EW
5. Lied to someone you liked: Yes
6. Wanted an ex bf/gf back: Naaah
8. Cried yourself to sleep: yes
9. Cried because you lost a pet: yes, my pip :'(
10. Wanted to disappear: sure.

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes: smile
2. Light or dark hair: dark hair
3. Hugs or kisses: kisses
4. Shorter or taller: don't matter none
5. Intelligence or attraction: intelligence
6. Romantic or spontaneous: romantic
7. Funny or serious: Serious
8. Older or Younger: Older
9. Outgoing or quiet: outgoing
10. Sweet or Bad Ass: bad boys

TEN HAVE YOU’S

1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd: Yes

2. Ever done drugs: Yes

3. Ever consumed alcohol: me likely a glass of wine at the end of the day
5. Ever been on a cheerleading team: No
6. Ever Been on a dance team: Yes
7. Ever been on a sports team: Yes
8. Ever been in a drama play/production: No
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley: No
10. Ever been in a rap video: I fucking wish.


TEN LASTS
1. Last phone call you made:This dood
2. Last person you hung out with: my fam
4. Last time you worked: today. What happened to question 3?
5. Last person you texted: heather
6. Last person you liked: I dunno?
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with: Jesusito
9. Last thing you missed: better late than pregnant
10. Last thing you ate: chicken pot pie. Oh nom nom

LAST PERSON TO
1. Sleep beside you? My laptop
2. See you cry? My mom
3. You went out to dinner with? Ummmmss. Mich.
5. Drink with you? Shannon
6. Ask you out? Jesus
7. Made you laugh? James Cameron
8. Play something with you? my xbox friends
9. Argue with you? My coworker.
10. Yell at you? My coworker, LOL


ARE YOU
1. Simple or complicated: complicated
2. Far from home: No
3. Funny or Stupid: Funny
4. Happy or Depressed: happy
5. Emo: bro, not a good look
6. Sympathic: to a fault
7. In love: Oh, I don't know
8. Hated: Could be
9. Quiet or loud: Quiet
10. Bored or excited: exciiiited for my day off!


DO YOU PREFER
1. Flowers or candy: flowers!
2. Gray or black: black
3. Colour or Black and white photos: color.
4. Sunrise or sunset: sunset. Cotton candy sky
5. Staying up late or waking up early: staying up late
6. Pizza or burger: burger
7. Boys or girls: MEN.
8. Tumblr or Facebook: tumblr
9. Blonde or red: Blonde
10. Piercing or tattoo: Neither

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY
1. Do you like anyone: yes
2. Does he know it:yes
DO YOU PREFER
1. Sun or moon: Sun
2. Winter or Summer: Winter
3. Left or right: Left
4. Hot or cold: Cold
5. Snow or rain: Rain
6. Vanilla or chocolate ice cream: Vanilla
7. Vodka or Jack Daniels: Vodka
8. Coke or Pepsi:Diet Coke

UNIQUE
1. Nervous Habits: scratch my shoulders/back, get red in the face
2. Are you double jointed: No
3. Can you twist your tongue around and roll it: No
4. Can you raise one eyebrow: No
5. Can you cross your eyes: Yes
6. Do you make your bed daily: Nope


QUESTIONS
1. Which shoe goes on first: Left
2. Ever thrown something at someone: Yes
3. On average, how much money do you carry with you: A few dollars
4. What jewelery do you wear: Daily-Watch and earrings. Everyting else on occasion
1. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it: Twirl
2. Have you ever eaten Spam: um, no
3. Favorite ice cream: cookies and cream
4. How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet? 3
5. What’s your favorite beverage: Diet coke that's flat
6. Do you cook: Yes


IN THE LAST MONTH HAVE YOU
1. Had a relationship: Yes
2. Bought something: Yes
4. Sang: Yep
5. Been hugged: Yes
6. Felt stupid: Yes
7. Missed someone: Of course


LASTS
1. Last Alcoholic Drink: Champagne for my birfdaaay
2. Last Car ride: to the bowling alley
3. Last Movie Seen: scott pilgrim vs the world
4. Last Song Played: lady gaga- just dance

This picture reminds me of my man and I.
The dark liquor, significant height difference, the "don't give a fuck attitude," carnal love..

Surprises everyday. I'm a phoenix.

“We pushed our faces into each other. There was something rude and bruising about it, like I was mad at him and he was mad at me and we were having a fight with our lips, but somehow it all still felt pretty good.”

—Aimee Bender, The Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake

I like

recipes; stained, burned, torn, splattered with notes
books with pages bent and worn binds

true blood season 2

Elizabeth Bathory reference and the use of the word vicissitudes. Not to mention, Alcide. Momma like.

As a baby I had no falling reflex because of my neurological problems. Still don't, it's conscious now. My parents spent a shitload of money on specialty mats. My mother sat me down on the mat and I spent a few minutes examining it. It was the first time I had ever crawled.

The Greek Orthodox funeral mass was heart-wrenching and eye opening. A little too patriarchal but it got me thinking. Sheeeit Vatican II, why did you have to get rid of Latin? WHY DO THE CATHOLICS DIRTY LIKE THAT?

Mollie is leaving in a few days. People come and go always. I will miss her most. A beautiful soul has colored my life for the past three years and I will cherish our friendship forever. My spirit sister;bosom buddy. Always with sound advice and a good laugh. I love you, Bagel!

"I don't understand woman today. I never ever wanted a bigger ass."-Mom

I am sleep-deprived. I have strep throat and cramps. I'm watching Tyler Perry movies. The latter is the worst part of this scenario. I'm hoping that it will get better and it never does. His movies are parodies of life.

I listened to myself. Like I always do.

Secondhand embarrassment rn

"You act as if you just went through chemotherapy." -Mom after we got manicures/pedicures.

The dichotomy that is me.

There is an unbridled sanctity in solitude. This was a relaxing few hours.


"Muy deliciosa."

My best Lindsay Lohan impression. Minus the cocaine...and the cactus.

I am and will not be afraid of age or unwelcoming of utter transformation, abrupt or gradual.

l’amor che move il sole e l’altre stelle

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

I had a dream that I was atop of a cliff, looking out at a clear blue sea. It was gorgeous and a cool breeze hit me. I looked down and the cliff was made of kirkland signature merchandise. I swallowed a pill, felt weightless, then jumped.

I've been remembering my dreams pretty regularly nowadays.

"Eating again, Kate?" -My store manager.

"What are you doing back here? Samples haven't started yet." - Produce Guy.

FUCK YOU GUYS, lol. Moopiggin' it up.

DIS BITCH. ::Bites fist::

I walked past a sea of male coworkers and they started singing "Lady in red." HILARS.

Cognitive aphrodisia brought to fruition. It's been so long and I'm reveling in it.

Time seems unreal. This gradual transformation. But I will always have the utmost priority of maintaining my true nature.

Nants ingonyama bagithi Baba. This is fucking majestic. BOW DOWN

all this time paradise is home with my family.

Whip me, Bite me, Eat me, Tease me stockings courtesy of Agent Provocateur. I love these but 70 dollars is steep.

I have a fever and cowbell online shopping is the only cure!

Mind and body rejuvenation. Homemade chicken noodle soup with rosemary bread.

You're a narcissist. An asshole with delusions with grandeur. I can't believe I gave you so much of my soul. Stupid, silly Kate.

What is responsible for this coquettish/come-hither look? A wine cooler.

memorized this.

I was reading a lot of about the Kennedy's. What an incredible fuckfest. Anyway how have I never seen this picture. It oozes post coital and I'm loving it...

dream

I was at a beach resort with family and friends. I was yelling, "I'm wearing Diane Keaton pants. They're loose-fitting and comfortable and I don't need a man!"

Love, let me sleep tonight
On your couch..
And remember the smell
And the fabric
Of your simple city dress..

Oh... That was so real

We walked around
'til the moon got full
Like a plate..
And the wind blew an invocation
And I fell asleep
At the gate..
And I never stepped on the cracks 'cause I thought I'd hurt my mother
And I couldn't awake from the nightmare
That sucked me in
And pulled me under
Pulled me under

Oh... That was so real

I love you..
But I'm afraid to love you

I Love you
But I'm afraid to love you...
I'm afraid...

Oh... That was so real

song on repeat.

I spy with my litte eye

Me, on the dance floor

chatroulette is amazeballs

My set up. Hoooooty hoot.

A chocolate nipple from baking. I couldn't stop laughing. Bon Appetit!

It's innate and I don't want anyone else.

With beauty, not only set in skin
But beauty of character, of virtue

"You know what I love about you, Kate? You're not concerned with pleasing others. You just do." --Mom

A customer told me I look Icelandic. Not that North, buddy ;)

Confederacy of Dunces is seriously blowing every expectation I had out of the water.
I've never laughed so frequently whilst reading a book. Righteousssss

Also, Chevy Chase. Looking despicably delicious. (photobomb)

Why haven't I been listening to Led Zepplin my entire life?
Whole lotta love.

Purchases to be made this week
Dr. Martens Vintage 1490 10 Eye Boot in black, natch
Leather Pants with zipper detail
Parfait for radiating badassery and general uptonogoodness. . . ;)